“Here I Go Again”

“Here I Go Again”

In Exodus I read about how God used Moses to deliver the people of Israel out of Egypt. God appeared to Moses as a burning bush and they engaged in conversation. Later on in Exodus 4, I found my “burning bush” so to speak.

 

“Moses raised another objection to God: “Master, please, I don’t talk well. I’ve never been good with words, neither before nor after you spoke to me. I stutter and stammer.” God said, “And who do you think made the human mouth? And who makes some mute, some deaf, some sighted, some blind? Isn’t it I, God ? So, get going. I’ll be right there with you—with your mouth! I’ll be right there to teach you what to say.” Exodus 4:10‭-‬12 MSG

 

That was nearly a month ago when I read those words, and other than the few days that followed, I honestly forgot I read about it and I let my fear creep back in. I’ve always known that it is easier for me to express how I feel through music. Last night my brother Joel was trying to find an old Casting Crowns song, and when we finally found it I was reminded of that passage from Exodus. One of the hardest things to experience is seeing someone that you love dearly suffering. The easiest thing for me to do is to say, “I’m praying for you,” but sometimes they need more than that.

 

“Father, hear my prayer

I need the perfect words

Words that he will hear

And know they’re straight from You

I don’t know what to say

I only know it hurts

To see my only friend slowly fade away

So maybe this time I’ll speak the words of life

With Your fire in my eyes

But that old familiar fear is tearing at my words

What am I so afraid of?

‘Cause here I go again

Talkin ’bout the rain

And mulling over things that won’t live past today

And as I dance around the truth

Time is not his friend

This might be my last chance to tell him

That You love Him

But here I go again, here I go again

Lord, You love him so, You gave Your only Son

If he will just believe; he will never die

But how then will he know what he has never heard

Lord he has never seen mirrored in my life

So maybe this time I’ll speak the words of life

With Your fire in my eyes

But that old familiar fear is tearing at my words

What am I so afraid of…”

What am I so afraid of? Not having the right words to say, rejection, and so much more. However, I rely on the promise that God is with me always and He guides my every word.

~Kristen Kramer~

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